Wat a day~ I am all tired and sleepy today...

Maybe its my month of habination.... *how I wish*

Just lying on my bed watching my CSI... even that is not interesting liao~

BORING SAT!!!!

Woo Karina... wat a wish... I gonna crack my brains again...

I went to the fitness centre at taka with foong today.
Its so nice!
We swam and went to the jacuzzi followed by the sauna
Ah~ so relaxing

We decided to go once a week~ SHIOK!

Present Present Present!
Headache but anything for your 20th birthday dear...
Hey cheer up lah... 20 is when you step into womanhood~
Haha... like me... right in between~

My second time blogging tonight...

i think most ppl would be mad at me for not updating my blog...

Well cos i dont know what i should or should not update incase i might offend ppl

Also, i dont wanna update my life in detail cos I still need some privacy.

Bascially, I have been praying lately. Praying to the lord to teach me and guide me on how he wants me to live my life. I dont wanna think, am too tired cos I always make the wrong decision. Lord if you are reading my blog, help me

Mum is sick... dont know how to help... dont know how to express my concern, I have learnt to be stone over the years. expressionless face. trying to read my thoughts? likely i am not thinking, just staring into blank space.

I wonder what happens if mummy leaves me... i dread that day~
cos i am still her little ger and mummy still protects me and dotes on me
what if one day i wake up and she is no longer that?

Well... tat thought scares me and everytime i start crying... I am not as tough as I appear, in fact I admit I am weak. Sometimes I want to hug her and tell her I love her... but it aint our family thingy to do that and it feels weird.

What if one day i go... hey mummy you know huh... and i realise she is gone, i cant find her anymore
The smell of cakes and cookies in her oven no more...
She nagging me to get my room tidy no more...
She doesnt need me to go with her for treatment where she sits there and i admire the fish in the tank
what if tat day comes?

Dont ask me... I dont wanna know...
I never want to know...

But I know, the lord will take good care of her when tat day comes and we shall be reunited in heaven...

I love you mum... let you know if you happened to stumble on my blog one day~

hmm... I bought my Omega Watch!

Hah~

So happy...

Now i can tell my time better? *slap myself... stupid*

Moody Monday
I have been having lots of hiccups in my life
I hope everything is over...
Cant handle too many surprise and changes for once.

I was late for RCIA, but i dropped in the chapel to pray to lord to relieve me of everything
I must admit I felt much better.
Especially after I told him about all my worries and problems...

I felt more at peace with myself...

Lord, I entrust myself to you...
And I have faith that you will give me a better and more beautiful life

Thank you lord~

Up dates on the past week... not in any other

1) I ate Ice cream only once...
2) Went to eat my shui jiao mian at crystal jade
3) Got a pasmina shawl (black)
4) Haven updated my blog since forever
5) Missing you
6) Thinking of your jokes
7) Thinking of how you hold my hands (even though you dont do tat often)
8) Thinking of how you smell
9) Thinking of your new goatee... you nv got one when we were together
10) Got stuck in office alone... during the 7th month
11) Got scared by Ivy once
12) Got scared by Christine twice... including sms I received
13) Got scared by Yvonne THRICE!
14) Got confirmed by CEMS... at least wouldnt get sack in near future
15) Computer almost died.. and I wanted to cry cos I only have like 1000 emails to file
16) Puked my entire lunch today
17) Called you~
18) Missed hearing your voice
19) Got an sms from GST saying she got scolded in office but I have no time to reply... so guilty
20) Going Mahjong tomorrow with my colleagues...
21) Agreed with Cheryl that botak is getting cuter and cuter~

Love Me~

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I miss you...

But who cares about that right...

Life goes on for everyone...

The wound doesnt heal so soon...

DAMN DAMN DAMN!
I missed my friday 13 blog... its 14 liao... too late

Meet up with YJ and gang today.
Its been awhile since we met up and bitch around haha

Heard from YJ a few weeks ago stories about Kok being a scrooge.
Wanted to hear from Cindy though. But then she was complaining about other stuff..
Anyway I was too tired to think... I was simply soaking in all the updates about my friends' lives~

I got lost at the esplanade on the way to meet them
Lucky for this nice guy who works at there... I wanna applaud the esplanade staff!
They were great sia~ directing me and bringing me to where i needed to go

Anyway, about 10+ Kok msg Cindy saying that he was going to pick her up...
So he came and we simply refused to let her go.. but she gave in eventually
But we did the most bitchy thing... 4 of us smsed her the same msg at the same time...
Guorong suck BIG TIME!!!
hahaha

Cindy~ sorry but he really suck~

I miss you guys... Lets meet up someday again
I WANNA GO ON A TRIP WITH YOU GUYS AGAIN!!!!
Argh~ need to save money first... or if we can find sugar daddy to sponsor us... *crap*

I had to drag myself to work today... so sleepy
Philip got sack... so derick came up with the theory that the place is jinx...

I was looking for some documents at Philip's place this afternoon and derick was like
DONT SIT~

HAHA
silly guy~

Work is piling up and I have no mood to do.
Trying my best to concentrate... haiz
Working there is so demoralising...
Everyday I wonder if its my last day...

Stress sia~ hate working life!

Its my graduation today...
I remember how I hated going poly. How I hated everything abt NYP
But today,
I am just glad to leave lol~

Met Karina... Boy i miss you
GST~
Wina
Chaifong~
Everyone~

I miss my classmates... *sob*

Feeling much happier today... :)

Philip got axe
when is it my turn?
I wonder~

National day...
I woke up with puffy and swollen eyes...
Life sucks as I know its a brand new day but it didnt feel new

Well well...
I went to catch the fireworks at marina...
so pretty...
i wanna see fireworks again...

*smile*

I think its over really...
Thanks for being there...
If I am asked to choose again,
It would still be you...

Sorry...
And Thank You

I am feeling a range of emotions...
Nuthing to say ultimately but
Sorry and Thank you...

FRIDAY!

I wanna go swimming tomolo morning... then I gonna meet GST for lunch...
Karina are you coming?
I miss you
If you are not coming, I gonna share juciy gossip with GST
And we are not repeating any of those to you!!!!
Hate you for being so busy :P

I always like meeting... you know why...
cos i like to listen to how ppl talk how the discussion goes, somehow i find it entertaining
kekeke
How some ppl got put down by others
How some impressive ideas get born

Ignore me... I am nonsensical... (is that how i spell)
who cares! its my blog so tolerant my lousy spelling
lol

Oh wat a day~

YIPPEE! Derick brought me to a sales meeting! So nice of him... always wanted to go to one...
Co-ordinator's job pretty pathetic...
everyday revolves around emails emails emails emails and MORE EMAILS!!!!

Hah~ Thurs night... meet Wina and gang for dinner... so long nv meet up wif them...

These days I just wanna haf fun... Dont stop me anyone~
I am enjoying myself~

I am back... from drinking wif 2 colleagues...
Cheryl and Uncle DERICK DING!!!
Happy now that you are part of my blog?

The day suck... was in a bad mood the entire day

In meeting... My jaws got locked halfway when i moved my mouth to the left...
Edward thought i was yawning... how embarrassing when he signal me to cover my mouth!

Dont know why... lately been having lock jaws... why huh?
I dont dare move my mouth too much.. jaws ganna lock cannot close mouth so paiseh!

I am moving in circles in my life...
each time I thought i have taken a new path...
I realise I am back to the same place...
I am drawing no conclusion in all aspect...
If you are reading... sorri... I dont know what to do...

I am just seeking a corner to cry my heart out...

Didnt go swimming this weekend... How sad...
I miss my swimming session :<

I bought my tube dress yesterday liao~
So pretty... now foong wants one too hahaha

Went to causeway pt today... tried another tube dress
TOTALLY AWESOME! SO retro... but I dont need so many tube dresses... so not buying anyway.

Tomorrow got RCIA class again.
So lets see... maybe i can go swimming on Tues~

I WANNA SWIM!!!!!!!!!

Wat a day~ I am all tired and sleepy today...

Maybe its my month of habination.... *how I wish*

Just lying on my bed watching my CSI... even that is not interesting liao~

BORING SAT!!!!

Woo Karina... wat a wish... I gonna crack my brains again...

I went to the fitness centre at taka with foong today.
Its so nice!
We swam and went to the jacuzzi followed by the sauna
Ah~ so relaxing

We decided to go once a week~ SHIOK!

Present Present Present!
Headache but anything for your 20th birthday dear...
Hey cheer up lah... 20 is when you step into womanhood~
Haha... like me... right in between~

My second time blogging tonight...

i think most ppl would be mad at me for not updating my blog...

Well cos i dont know what i should or should not update incase i might offend ppl

Also, i dont wanna update my life in detail cos I still need some privacy.

Bascially, I have been praying lately. Praying to the lord to teach me and guide me on how he wants me to live my life. I dont wanna think, am too tired cos I always make the wrong decision. Lord if you are reading my blog, help me

Mum is sick... dont know how to help... dont know how to express my concern, I have learnt to be stone over the years. expressionless face. trying to read my thoughts? likely i am not thinking, just staring into blank space.

I wonder what happens if mummy leaves me... i dread that day~
cos i am still her little ger and mummy still protects me and dotes on me
what if one day i wake up and she is no longer that?

Well... tat thought scares me and everytime i start crying... I am not as tough as I appear, in fact I admit I am weak. Sometimes I want to hug her and tell her I love her... but it aint our family thingy to do that and it feels weird.

What if one day i go... hey mummy you know huh... and i realise she is gone, i cant find her anymore
The smell of cakes and cookies in her oven no more...
She nagging me to get my room tidy no more...
She doesnt need me to go with her for treatment where she sits there and i admire the fish in the tank
what if tat day comes?

Dont ask me... I dont wanna know...
I never want to know...

But I know, the lord will take good care of her when tat day comes and we shall be reunited in heaven...

I love you mum... let you know if you happened to stumble on my blog one day~

hmm... I bought my Omega Watch!

Hah~

So happy...

Now i can tell my time better? *slap myself... stupid*

Moody Monday
I have been having lots of hiccups in my life
I hope everything is over...
Cant handle too many surprise and changes for once.

I was late for RCIA, but i dropped in the chapel to pray to lord to relieve me of everything
I must admit I felt much better.
Especially after I told him about all my worries and problems...

I felt more at peace with myself...

Lord, I entrust myself to you...
And I have faith that you will give me a better and more beautiful life

Thank you lord~

Up dates on the past week... not in any other

1) I ate Ice cream only once...
2) Went to eat my shui jiao mian at crystal jade
3) Got a pasmina shawl (black)
4) Haven updated my blog since forever
5) Missing you
6) Thinking of your jokes
7) Thinking of how you hold my hands (even though you dont do tat often)
8) Thinking of how you smell
9) Thinking of your new goatee... you nv got one when we were together
10) Got stuck in office alone... during the 7th month
11) Got scared by Ivy once
12) Got scared by Christine twice... including sms I received
13) Got scared by Yvonne THRICE!
14) Got confirmed by CEMS... at least wouldnt get sack in near future
15) Computer almost died.. and I wanted to cry cos I only have like 1000 emails to file
16) Puked my entire lunch today
17) Called you~
18) Missed hearing your voice
19) Got an sms from GST saying she got scolded in office but I have no time to reply... so guilty
20) Going Mahjong tomorrow with my colleagues...
21) Agreed with Cheryl that botak is getting cuter and cuter~

Love Me~

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I miss you...

But who cares about that right...

Life goes on for everyone...

The wound doesnt heal so soon...

DAMN DAMN DAMN!
I missed my friday 13 blog... its 14 liao... too late

Meet up with YJ and gang today.
Its been awhile since we met up and bitch around haha

Heard from YJ a few weeks ago stories about Kok being a scrooge.
Wanted to hear from Cindy though. But then she was complaining about other stuff..
Anyway I was too tired to think... I was simply soaking in all the updates about my friends' lives~

I got lost at the esplanade on the way to meet them
Lucky for this nice guy who works at there... I wanna applaud the esplanade staff!
They were great sia~ directing me and bringing me to where i needed to go

Anyway, about 10+ Kok msg Cindy saying that he was going to pick her up...
So he came and we simply refused to let her go.. but she gave in eventually
But we did the most bitchy thing... 4 of us smsed her the same msg at the same time...
Guorong suck BIG TIME!!!
hahaha

Cindy~ sorry but he really suck~

I miss you guys... Lets meet up someday again
I WANNA GO ON A TRIP WITH YOU GUYS AGAIN!!!!
Argh~ need to save money first... or if we can find sugar daddy to sponsor us... *crap*

I had to drag myself to work today... so sleepy
Philip got sack... so derick came up with the theory that the place is jinx...

I was looking for some documents at Philip's place this afternoon and derick was like
DONT SIT~

HAHA
silly guy~

Work is piling up and I have no mood to do.
Trying my best to concentrate... haiz
Working there is so demoralising...
Everyday I wonder if its my last day...

Stress sia~ hate working life!

Its my graduation today...
I remember how I hated going poly. How I hated everything abt NYP
But today,
I am just glad to leave lol~

Met Karina... Boy i miss you
GST~
Wina
Chaifong~
Everyone~

I miss my classmates... *sob*

Feeling much happier today... :)

Philip got axe
when is it my turn?
I wonder~

National day...
I woke up with puffy and swollen eyes...
Life sucks as I know its a brand new day but it didnt feel new

Well well...
I went to catch the fireworks at marina...
so pretty...
i wanna see fireworks again...

*smile*

I think its over really...
Thanks for being there...
If I am asked to choose again,
It would still be you...

Sorry...
And Thank You

I am feeling a range of emotions...
Nuthing to say ultimately but
Sorry and Thank you...

FRIDAY!

I wanna go swimming tomolo morning... then I gonna meet GST for lunch...
Karina are you coming?
I miss you
If you are not coming, I gonna share juciy gossip with GST
And we are not repeating any of those to you!!!!
Hate you for being so busy :P

I always like meeting... you know why...
cos i like to listen to how ppl talk how the discussion goes, somehow i find it entertaining
kekeke
How some ppl got put down by others
How some impressive ideas get born

Ignore me... I am nonsensical... (is that how i spell)
who cares! its my blog so tolerant my lousy spelling
lol

Oh wat a day~

YIPPEE! Derick brought me to a sales meeting! So nice of him... always wanted to go to one...
Co-ordinator's job pretty pathetic...
everyday revolves around emails emails emails emails and MORE EMAILS!!!!

Hah~ Thurs night... meet Wina and gang for dinner... so long nv meet up wif them...

These days I just wanna haf fun... Dont stop me anyone~
I am enjoying myself~

I am back... from drinking wif 2 colleagues...
Cheryl and Uncle DERICK DING!!!
Happy now that you are part of my blog?

The day suck... was in a bad mood the entire day

In meeting... My jaws got locked halfway when i moved my mouth to the left...
Edward thought i was yawning... how embarrassing when he signal me to cover my mouth!

Dont know why... lately been having lock jaws... why huh?
I dont dare move my mouth too much.. jaws ganna lock cannot close mouth so paiseh!

I am moving in circles in my life...
each time I thought i have taken a new path...
I realise I am back to the same place...
I am drawing no conclusion in all aspect...
If you are reading... sorri... I dont know what to do...

I am just seeking a corner to cry my heart out...

Didnt go swimming this weekend... How sad...
I miss my swimming session :<

I bought my tube dress yesterday liao~
So pretty... now foong wants one too hahaha

Went to causeway pt today... tried another tube dress
TOTALLY AWESOME! SO retro... but I dont need so many tube dresses... so not buying anyway.

Tomorrow got RCIA class again.
So lets see... maybe i can go swimming on Tues~

I WANNA SWIM!!!!!!!!!